“… Awak dah dua hari tak datang sekolah, awak sakit?”

“Tak. Jaga adik.”

“Adik? Adik awak umur berapa?”

“Satu tahun. Mak kerja. Ayah tak ada.”

“Ayah pergi mana?”

“Entah. Keluar. Selalu besarkan kawan dia.”

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… and later I came to know that this quiet boy ever beat up one of his classmates, over a small matter recently. I hope he doesn’t vent his anger aimlessly. Teaching in Secondary School is not as easy as marking endless karangans or just scolding students who misbehave. Nowadays, when students misbehave I just ponder to myself and question where the fault or the problem really lies.

ouh i decided to give this a try. heeh.

http://kampungntss.wordpress.com/

but… I am not sure whether I’ll have time to use this webbie when I start teaching proper. Sure hope so. Maybe at LEAST updating of events or something. Still infant stage. Don’t expect much. hee

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my favourite student profile on the webbie:

pengenalan diri

… for you to come home. I miss the blue skies at Ubin. Don’t think we’ll have time for that anytime soon… Boo. Nvm, a simple lunch will do.

Happier today because…

1. It’s a Friday!

2. No wd training for one week i.e i got myself enough sleep.

3. I got a laptop issued to me so that means no more lugging my laptop over on days with lesson observations.

4. I am free to plan my lessons on the weekends; because of no. 2 & because baby’s away on a trip… so there’s no one to watch late night movies with. hee

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I hope to do many manyyy lesson obs next wk.

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Tomorrow, storytelling show at Clementi CC.

“Pada suatu hariiiii…”

haa. I still remember those times in pri sch. I wanted to do something more matured this time, using a cerpen ‘Wayang’ by Isa Kamari, but my CT wanted to use something more traditional so we’re sticking to “Bawang Puteh Bawang Merah”.

I volunteered to make props. I cut them out, then got the girls to help me paint.

Got (very photogenic) tree,

got pond, & house.

Me & the cast! Haa. This one my face blur because my handphone cam got self-timer, but doesn’t have the blinking guide light that would signal when precisely the shot will be taken.

It’s either I have too much on my hands, or too little in the pocket.

Either way (or both ways) it’s really affecting me as a person. More angsty, less energy & just really easily depressed… and these mood swings I’ve been having have been a hell of a rollercoaster. Do me a favour & don’t rub me the wrong way, please.

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You’re still the best… and I love you.

Just in case the moody demon in me changes her mind or tells you otherwise tomorrow. Take care & have fun on your trip.

I am NOT easily contented

BUT

I am glad we made it through… especially after all the challenges/unfortunate situations/unexplainable incidents, which includes a burning throat. Lucky Mak came up with her special ‘air asam’ remedy a day before the 19th. A life saver, I swear. Though I still sound like a man weird when I speak, at least I managed to reach most of the notes that day. To sing with a voice like that took alot of will power & odd pauses to breathe to sustain certain notes. The most important thing is I did not step off stage feeling remorseful or telling myself I could have done better. Alhamdulillah, syukur. MP 04 did not repeat itself. Work harder the next round girls.

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Observation with Sup went well. Nasiiiiiibbbbb… But now I’m losing my voice & feeling feverish. MC? A god-forbidden sin during a period of time equivalent to hell practicum. Ah whatever. Depends on how I feel in the morning.

Retail theraphy always works. Got myself new shoes (yey!), but I got blisters on my feet now (boo!) because that’s just what new shoes do. I need a new make-up pouch.

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Music theraphy on thursday! No lesson on Friday – because the kids STILL owe my CT a presentation on Kesenian Melayu for their CA. Double joy!

Because two of the teachers are ending school experience this Friday, karaoke with them this Thursday! I’m going to miss the two.

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Thank you for rushing over to listen. one too many disappointments hit me all at once; I suppose I was not strong enough to take the blow alone. You are truly a gem. I hope I can do the same for you.

Is it so hard? To take the lead & organize?

I dunno if I’m going to regret saying this.

… I’m starting to enjoy teaching Normal Technical classes. They’re not very bright; and cannot spell too well & I always have to repeat my instructions… But, their sense of humour always makes my day. Haha. Maybe oneday if I remember their jokes, i’ll put it up here.

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Sup’s coming thursday. i’ll try finish up all my lesson plans before training today.

stressed is an understatement.

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I am BROKE & BUSY. My dad’s in hospital. Perdana’s in two wks time. Endless lesson plans for practicum. Not enough moolah to cover up for the essentials. My mum’s been nagging at me to quit dikir, sit at home & look after my dad…

ouh wait, did i just miss registeration for practicum?

… and all this waiting! Ugh. I simply CANNOT proceed with my lesson plans till IT’S settled. If I was paid, I would have cabbed down and settled the payments myself. Haiz.

It’s nobody’s fault. Just a case of bad timing.